So there's this person who I'm in love with, and this person keeps joking around with me, giving me the idea that they might like me too....which is frustrating, because technically every thing that this person says is a joke, but I'm always getting my hopes up. And it's not a crush on my part: it's love. Major frustration!

So, I realized something: as much as I want to go to Japan someday, I'm worried that as soon as I go I'll feel lost and alone. I mean, shit, I felt alone here the first few weeks. Until I realized that I do have friends, albeit very few, who love me to death here already. I even got a box of Godiva chocolates for valentine's day which was a nice gesture on my friend's part.

I thought college would make me into a more mature, adult person...but it has, instead, made me completely immature, giggly, and hyper. On the flip side, I've become really productive and am learning new things about my talents and my new art style is very, er...abstract? And I used to hate abstract art, but I think I'm definitely thinking outside the box.

Chicago is the most beautiful city that I have ever lived in. The people here are nicer, the food is better (way better) and the shopping is so good yet since I have most clothing items I have ever wanted, I can't really buy anything. And I have to budget my money, which holds me back. Just walking through the downtown area, knowing I actually LIVE there, gives me a thrill because it just seems so surreal. I love the architecture here, I love the art that's thrown in at random places, and I love it that even McDonald's has revolving doors.

I don't know what to say..because sometimes I still get depressed. I miss my family and friends back home so much and it makes me very sad because i can't visit them since I have so much work to do here. Aww! Haha. Well, I'm going to go prepare some breakfast. Take care, everyone.